The long Easter weekend was rough and a massive derailment from how I envisioned my time to go, as well as what I was used to from myself.
I spent most of the weekend doing next-to-nothing but sleeping and eating. I typically have troubles sleeping, even just napping, throughout the day (see Melatonin: Background), yet then I somehow managed to have regular nights sleep + 4-or-so naps per day.
And even Monday and Tuesday I had barely any motivation or energy to do anything.
Why is this? It doesn’t quite feel like the planning fallacy, since this is far out of distribution for me, rather than smth I really should have expected and just instead looked at my idealized self. This was very atypical.
But even if this exact thing might not happen again, it still seems useful to identify things that reduce METs for me:
Not feeling like there’s much expectation on me right now, combined with not having all that much to do, reduced motivation or pressure to do things now (as opposed to later).
The things that I did want to do or work on all sort of failed: people I reached out to either weren’t in the area or were unavailable, I wanted to go to thrift stores but due to many public holidays this (and similar things) wasn’t an option, and my thesis submission got stalled more (see Where do reasonable precautions end) all of which reduced motivation (due to a sense of nothing working out rn), but the last one in particular put me in a sort of limbo state where I was just waiting to hear back from my supervisor but didn’t get anything. It also made me more reluctant to really start anything else.
Being somewhat lower energy, which is probably mediated from not really doing anything. Going outside for walks might have helped here, but since I had no particular reason to go outside right now, it got postponed until Monday late afternoon.
The low energy and low motivation sort of feed into each other which then also creates a sort of narrative and overall feeling of a specific state.