I’ve been having many ideas, things to write about. Often I wrote down a note or even did a bullet-point draft. It’s Writing April 2026 and I want to write. To write, to make the number on beeminder go up, to make progress, to write.
I have a folder full of things I want to write about but my brain is full of static…
I generally like my drive for productivity, but sometimes it gets in the way if I try to force it. Multitasking feels more productive, but in many situations doesn’t really get that much more done but has a much higher mental cost that makes me not be able to swork afterwards (which is what just happened).
But instead of forcing myself to write for the sake of the numbers, or force myself to check tasks off of my intend.do, I’ll go against the force making me feel bad.
I would just do things half-heartedly, then not being engaged enough and then trying to distract myself whilst doing the other thing. Maybe by listening to some podcast or story. Which is essentially multitasking again.
Hmm… I’d be excited to watch some QuinsQuest though… enough to actually also make food, without distracting myself (so as to enjoy the video later on all the more) and tidy up my room a bit.
Tidying up the room feels good, the static is clearing. I’m feeling a bit antsy, like I’ve spent too much time on my laptop. I want to go out and do things out there. Is this what having a life feels like? I still have to get used to that.
Let’s find stuff to doo