is a question that I’ve mostly answered myself with “no no, please. I don’t want more desires to take care of, to have to satisfy them or live with them taking up mental space and occupying high-up preference slots”. Funnily enough, I was avoiding falling in love or crushing on someone bc I didn’t want to have her moving up my list of priorities. I thought, I will be thinking about things either way, might as well be video games or random stuff, rather than a crush. Granted, this was at a time that I consider to be before becoming a person.
But on a recent trip to Belgium, L essentially told me that desires are great bc you get to fulfil them1. This was a very different framing, but I’ve grown to appreciate it. Specifically, I think this is great in non-Current Modes.
In [[Modes - A Manual for Myself#drift-mode|Drift Mode]], this fills up some Void Time and makes the day overall a bit more enjoyable.
But where this becomes the most useful2 is in [[Modes - A Manual for Myself#doldrums-inert-mode|Inert Mode]], where noticing just the smallest of desires and fulfilling them might be the best way out to a state that is more enjoyable3. That is, when in a state where inactivity is easy and reinforced, where there is little drive and all desires are muted, kindling and acting upon them and reaching more spark, drive, activation are great!
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specifically, that thirst is great bc then you get to enjoy drinking beverages, which then creates a desire to pee later, which you then ALSO GET TO FULFIL! How great! :) ↩
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yeah OK, I realize I immediately frame “fulfilling desires”, “doing what you feel like”, “hedonism” in a productivity sense… ↩
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and yes, more productive ↩